Things got pretty interesting last night. Trying to avoid all this drama is getting exhausting. I dont want to be alone but at the same time all the people I've been around are just so damn dramatic i cant do it! So it went from finally talking to the person that started all this shit, to talking to someone who i haven't spoken to in over 10 years and that's just... must stay away. Talking with the drama queen didn't help at all, i mean i felt slightly relieved but wanted to run away even more after getting off the phone. i really screwed up this time, but can you blame me? ha... you don't even know.
So drama queen is the one telling lies now, she acts like nothing happened.. haha i wish nothing happened then i wouldn't be in this predicament. So i had this "friend" and he decided he was going to be a cheating asshole. I tried staying out of it, but the more we hung out, the more he expected me to cover and lie for him, the more i was involved. So i got sick of it, he's basically been using me.. and i dont know why, i dont have anything anyone wants! So things just got out of control and being the weak and vunerable person i am right now i made a bad decision and now he thinks the worst. So it might be for the best but at the same time i feel really horrible! Just have to stay away from both of them..
So i've been reconnecting... lol. Talked to a few people i havn't seen or spoken to in 10+ years. Its pretty crazy. Ive never had a facebook myspace or any of that. But i signed up for facebook last week.. Already had alot of requests, its crazy how fast people found me. And well this one girl... who's married. We were together when we were teenagers! hit me with a curve ball last night when she let me know how she really feels. I cant do that! shes married! so that sent me spinning and now i've got to back off from that before something BAD happens... bad bad things. So yeah.. one week on facebook, its already deactivated.
This blog is going to be more focused on what im doing to avoid all the damn drama out there and eventually there wont be any more drama posts(i hope!), things will improve as i begin to learn to stay away from it. What do you do when you see drama? just run away? or act like it isnt happening? ignore it? Can you honestly say you could sit by while a friend is cheating on his girl right in front of you? What about watching him put his hands on her...